despite being unable to speak a word of french (which isn't exactly true.. lol), I'd still like to express some of my emotions in francais.

and all I know is

Je t'aime beaucoup!

I don't know why. I'm happy.

and I feel rather bubbly right now. which isn't too good for a time like this. bedtime.

yawn. I smile at this one simple thought.

(:

we all have experienced this before.

you have no idea what happened, but then your friend(s) just drifted away. perhaps that's the exact problem. absolutely nothing happened. and you kind of made sure of that. because, you didn't do anything. nothing at all. nope...

have you ever had this feeling that after you say goodbye to that person, you're not actually sure when's the next time you'll say hello?

and after a while, you start to wonder, why didn't they look for me? did I do something wrong? maybe they're just busy? or maybe I think too highly of myself. after all, who am I to that person?

did it ever cross your mind that, they're probably thinking of the same thing? or they might be as lazy and lousy as you are in sustaining friendships. and they might be thinking, "oh, mustn't look for them. don't wanna bother them. don't wanna be annoying."

and funnily enough, while you guys are in two different places, gazing into the sky, or looking at the screen in front of you, you might actually be thinking of each other. and not doing anything. when you could have restarted a whole new conversation with them, or just simply continued your previous chat.

"Let's chat later." "I'll look for you tmr!" "ttyl" "until tomorrow!!! =)" "catch up soon!"

and you never know when "later" will happen, what "soon" means, or when "tomorrow" will arrive.

oh man. and it makes you feel so bummered.

but hey, who is it to blame? hm?

anyway

to end on a positive note, here is Stephen Bashaw's When Tomorrow Comes

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w57buDugLxc

good luck.

it's important to know what makes us happy.

disconnected, but connected.

we are on the same page.